I’m Not a Big Deal. But, my God…

This has been a great weekend to celebrate my birthday. My wife always shines during these times because she loves birthdays. My church team came through also, working behind the scenes to show me love even when I hadn’t asked for it. And today, as I reflect on all the comments, calls, and texts I’ve received today, I’m thankful that you all have chosen to show love on my birthday. I, on the other hand, don’t really like to make a big deal out of them. It’s not that I don’t enjoy them, I just have trouble handling attention that’s focused on me.

I mean, I’m not all that. I’m not a big deal. I’m just a guy that is grateful that God has shown me the beautiful blessings of His path. I love my Lord and my God; my heart breaks at the recollection of the many major decisions I made that have put “me first”. I relish the opportunity to put God on a pedestal, and it makes me happy to be a part of someone’s blessing. I’m a seed planter; a sower, if you will. I’m also a lover of my wife, my daughter, my family, my friends, my church, and the many students I’ve worked with throughout the years.

To my wife, leading you is as challenging and fulfilling a ministry as there is. You are the first member of my church 🙂 and I pray that I honor you because you are worthy. To my daughter, I can’t put into words how important it is for me to pour my love and faith into you. Who knows if you will read this, but I am constantly seeking God and believing Him for protecting your path. To my family and friends, you get the uncensored version of me, my deep thoughts and my reflective confessions. You get the silliness that may make other people question my sanity and I love you for being there. To my church and my students, I thank God for sending me to you, because your growth inspires me. I look at you and I want God’s best for your lives. I want to see miracles happen by faith and to see God glorified as you navigate the processes of adulthood and discipleship. To you all, I am humbled by your love and the fact God has allowed me to walk with you for even a small part of your journey.

Because you see, I’m not a big deal. I’m really just trying to do what I was born to do. What I recognized God was calling me to do on December 17, 2001. It was that day that my God opened my eyes to the life He had for me, and since then I’ve been an imperfect person pursuing the path of divine perfection. As I begin this new year of my life, Lord, I just want to thank You for 36 years of it all working out for my good. I love you, and I’m called according to your purpose. My greatest wish for this next year is that I decrease more so that You may increase in Me.

Thy Kingdom Come…



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